I ride to you now
On this bus
On this train
Not knowing whether the journey back home
Will feel even remotely the same.
Pain, suffering
Desire, joy
Endured it all I have.
You kept me in this confusion and mystery
A warm blanket it has been
But too hot to sleep even in winter nights.
As I offer myself to you
I wonder what will run through your mind
Surprise and shock?
Distaste and disgust?
Happiness and joy?
Answers to these questions I know not.
However I do know that despite it all
You will not destroy me.
Even if the word no leaves your lips
I will simply smile sadly
Downcast and lonely.
But if,
By some chance,
You say the words I so eagerly wish to hear
Then the whole world would smile with us
As we get a little older together.